About that yoga article......................................

Towards the end of the article the Author shared the following words:

Pride is a terrible, terrible quality to have too much of. And when coupled with fear, it prevents us from doing things our spirit wants us to do.

Stop for a minute and think about it. Maybe even go back and read it again.

Is it pride that keeps me lined up in the back of the pack so I don't have to endure all those people passing me? Pride, in disguise, that has convinced myself that I don't care about my time when I run/race? Pride that makes me tell strangers on the street that I am running a marathon, believing the more people I tell the less likely I am to drop out and embarrass myself?

Maybe it is, but if one looks at the last part of the quote, maybe not...

For years pride kept me home, on the sofa. I had convinced myself that I couldn't do it, and so I didn't even try, least I prove myself right. Since I had tried and failed so many times in the past, history didn't seem to be on my side... and yet...

Whatever the reason, this time I have written a different ending for the beginning, and boy am I proud of that! My fear of failure (at least when it comes to running) has vanished. Maybe I line up at the back of the pack, because I like the atmosphere that resides there, or I am being polite and staying out of the fast lane for the speedsters on the course? Maybe I am not interested in pushing myself to run faster because if feels so dang good being right where I am now? Maybe, one day, I will have the desire to join the speedsters in the front, and strive towards an ever new and amazing PR. My only hope is if and when I do it is because it is time for me, and not because I think I have something to prove to others for the sake of my pride.