In hiding.....................................

The last two days I have been avoiding interaction with the general public. Those people that are in my inner circle fine, but I don't want to chance hearing anything that might upset me. No news, no weather reports, no attitudes, nothing.

The logical part of brain knows this is silly, but the biggest part of brain doesn't see any point in chancing it. It is sorta like when I was in labor with my children. I tuned out the world in order to fully focus on the task at hand. I had no idea that I would be doing this for the marathon, but here it is.

I have been doing silly little indulgent things like taking color baths and burning yummy smelling candles while I fiddle with my guitar. I deserve this time to myself, and am taking full advantage of it.

I think a part of me wants to savor the last little bit of time I have before the big day. I want to bask in all I have gone through to get to this point in my life and all the positive changes that have happen to me over the past three years.

I know I am still going to be me when the race is over, but I also know I am going to be different, and maybe I need to mourn the passing of that me.

Maybe I just have too much time on my hands!

Regardless, I just wanted to check in and now that I have it is back into hiding.